how silence actually means a thousand words...
how leaving actually means that you are holding on...
and pain seems to mingle and flirt with happiness
not realizing that they are actually intertwined...
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Contradiction
how leaving actually means that you are holding on...
and pain seems to mingle and flirt with happiness
not realizing that they are actually intertwined...
Monday, September 10, 2007
Bruises and dents and Band-Aid
How does one heal a broken heart..? People say that time will heal everything.
I tend to disagree. Time doesn't really heal it.
At least not in the context of when you use the word heal, as in healing cold, or fever or cough..
In those cases, once the sickness is gone, you can go back to your old self, without any traces of the sickness in you...
With love, it's a bit more complicated...cross out the word bit, it's FAR more complicated...
If it's possible to inspect the heart under a microscope, I almost believe that perhaps you can see a bit of dent here in there...After all, haven't we all been through those moments in life where it hurts so bad that you can literally feel a sting in your heart?
So, what time actually does is that it will help your heart to almost go back to the way it was, but the dents and bruises would remain there.
The next question would be, what do you do with those dents and bruises..Well, nothing actually.
This is not to sound pessimistic, but the more you cover your dents and bruises with Band-Aid (read: pretending it doesn't hurt like hell..) or the more anesthetic you use (read: consolation companionship or rebound guy/girl or whatever anesthetic you have in mind), the harder it is for you to recover...
Cos at the end of the day, you realize, substitution just doesn't feel like the real thing!
Besides, those Band-Aid and anesthetic will only lead to internal bleeding..
DEFINITION of INTERNAL BLEEDING from BREAKUP 101:
The state when you walk out feeling like you are totally OK, while actually you're dying inside..And it is undetected...And suddenly, you can't even feel anything anymore...numb..
So, no Band Aid for me...I would rather embrace the pain, wallow in my misery..Rather than having one of those internal bleeding..
Cos when you look back, you realize that when love offers you its hands...
You don't want to feel numb, you would want to embrace it with open arms..
When life is kind enough to let you go on that beautiful journey...
You will finally understand that those dents and bruises are worth every bits of beautiful moments you experience during that lil' journey of LOVE...
I tend to disagree. Time doesn't really heal it.
At least not in the context of when you use the word heal, as in healing cold, or fever or cough..
In those cases, once the sickness is gone, you can go back to your old self, without any traces of the sickness in you...
With love, it's a bit more complicated...cross out the word bit, it's FAR more complicated...
If it's possible to inspect the heart under a microscope, I almost believe that perhaps you can see a bit of dent here in there...After all, haven't we all been through those moments in life where it hurts so bad that you can literally feel a sting in your heart?
So, what time actually does is that it will help your heart to almost go back to the way it was, but the dents and bruises would remain there.
The next question would be, what do you do with those dents and bruises..Well, nothing actually.
This is not to sound pessimistic, but the more you cover your dents and bruises with Band-Aid (read: pretending it doesn't hurt like hell..) or the more anesthetic you use (read: consolation companionship or rebound guy/girl or whatever anesthetic you have in mind), the harder it is for you to recover...
Cos at the end of the day, you realize, substitution just doesn't feel like the real thing!
Besides, those Band-Aid and anesthetic will only lead to internal bleeding..
DEFINITION of INTERNAL BLEEDING from BREAKUP 101:
The state when you walk out feeling like you are totally OK, while actually you're dying inside..And it is undetected...And suddenly, you can't even feel anything anymore...numb..
So, no Band Aid for me...I would rather embrace the pain, wallow in my misery..Rather than having one of those internal bleeding..
Cos when you look back, you realize that when love offers you its hands...
You don't want to feel numb, you would want to embrace it with open arms..
When life is kind enough to let you go on that beautiful journey...
You will finally understand that those dents and bruises are worth every bits of beautiful moments you experience during that lil' journey of LOVE...
How it all started..
Having one of those moments where I feel that I should definitely put what I am going through, my feelings, my thoughts, in writings..
So, finally, here I am creating a blog..
(yes, FINALLY, cos I had these moments quite frequent, but never actually act on it)
That way when I look back, I could take a look at this and say...
'Aaahh... that's how it was back then..And this is how it is now...And look how far I have come from that point on...'
No matter what you go through in life, where you end up, I think what matters most is the journey and what you learn along the way..And what you choose as your trinket...
For me, I choose blogging as one of my trinkets...hehe ;)
So, finally, here I am creating a blog..
(yes, FINALLY, cos I had these moments quite frequent, but never actually act on it)
That way when I look back, I could take a look at this and say...
'Aaahh... that's how it was back then..And this is how it is now...And look how far I have come from that point on...'
No matter what you go through in life, where you end up, I think what matters most is the journey and what you learn along the way..And what you choose as your trinket...
For me, I choose blogging as one of my trinkets...hehe ;)
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